Saturday, September 24, 2011

Remember ~ to keep in mind for attention of consideration


Today has been a day of remembering. Remembering a loved one, all the memories we shared. His family and friends coming together and sharing another memory together. Memories are something God gives us to help us move forward. We were riding through Starke today and it is filled with so many memories. More for Jeffrey than myself. Where he graduated from high school. The same high school his Dad graduated from. His first job. Kind people... not so kind people haha We moved to Starke when we had been married for 6 months and began making memories of our own. As we drove through town today and with our minds already going down memory lane, we passed a Pizza Hut. A special Pizza Hut. One that we remember even 15 years later. I said "you know, we need to write down all the times that God has miraculously provided for us. We forget." Jeffrey said "take a picture and blog about it". TWIST my arm... :) I love to proclaim God's wonders, his miracles!!!!
We were... um, a little less than poor at the time. I was pregnant with Micah. It was a normal Sunday where we went to church that morning. We had nothing at home to eat. Now I'm not just saying we had a pantry full of stuff but didn't know what to do with it... we had nothing. We had $12 in the bank so we were going to go by the store and get something. I had been really sick and didn't feel like making anything so Jeff says "well, we can trust God by going to the grocery store or we can trust God by going to eat pizza". So, we went to Pizza Hut. We knew we had JUST enough to buy our lunch. When we walked in, we saw the price for lunch buffet had gone up. Jeff said "I'll go pull out more money and come back and pay". He needed to eat something so we ate first. While we were eating, a family came in that had 6 kids. We really enjoyed watching them interact with the baby. This baby had special needs but like so many... no one told him that ;) He was probably about 2 years old. Jeff finished eating and left. The youth group from our church came in right as Jeff was leaving so I talked to them a minute and went back and sat down. The dad of this precious family came up to our table and said "God told me to pay for your food". I said "oh, no sir! We have it, we just didn't have enough... so he went to pull it out". He just said "God just told me to do this" and then he left. I sat there just in shock. Jeff walked in a few minutes later and I told him what had happened. We rushed out the door to pay the man. He was so calm, getting all the kids in the van. He said "we live in Palatka and we have no reason to come to Starke. Today God just told us we needed to come eat here. All I can tell you is do what God has you to do". Jeff thanked and thanked him and still tried to pay him. He said again "I'm just doing what God told me to do. Just go do what God has told you to do". We told them bye, got in our car and drove in teary silence most of the way home.

God has used many times like this to encourage us, to remind us "HEY, I'm here!!!" Yet, somehow, we still forget. We worry when money gets low, when loved ones get sick, when plans go COMPLETELY different than we had planned. Not only do we have the Bible with countless accounts of God's provision, we have modern day miracles and we still FORGET to REMEMBER!!!! I'm thankful for these precious precious memories!!!

1 Chronicles 16:12 "Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced"

disappointment


Those of you with kids know that it is always easy, always uplifting, never disappointing... ok, just checking to see if you are REALLY listening. Of course not, we KNOW it's not ALWAYS easy but for some reason I still get surprised when we go through valleys of disappointment. I've been struggling with a child that will go un named and have found myself starting to act mad towards him. With this "how dare you" attitude. "Why can't he see?" is on my mind constantly. I've prayed for guidance and wisdom on how to deal with this but my attitude was really starting to shape my actions (wait... isn't this what I'm aggravated about... yeah...) So, we are here, in Starke, Fl. for Jeffrey's uncle's funeral. A mixed emotion time for sure. We had a blessed trip down. Great conversation, took a nap... etc. I pick up this little devotion book beside the bed and the devotion is "when a friend disappoints you". Even though I'm dealing with my child at this point in time... the truth in this applies. I was both convicted and encouraged but this. Psalm 103:8 The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in mercy. The very first sentence is "How do you deal with people who disappoint you?" HA well... at the moment... I'm upset. I want to discipline him in to action, I want to ground him until he's 18, more chores, more school work... OUCH! I'm not even slightly filled with mercy much less ABOUNDING (filled to the very brim with). Here is another sentence that stuck with me "Can I learn to be gentle in dealing with the faults of others?" Wow! Unfortunately, I've found that I deal more grace and mercy to my friends than I do to my children. It's MY job to train/teach. It's MY job to ground them in what is right... but it's driving a wedge, pushing away. This is NOT what I desire!!! "God's way of dealing with people who disappoint Him is not my most natural way. It's harder. But it's also a far better way". Mercy, Grace, Slow to Anger!!!!!!

Thank you God for being faithful to light the path day by day with each decision that is set before me! Give me strength to follow through with what you have shown me is the RIGHT way to act!

There is a ton of stuff going on right now but this was pressing on my heart to share. Our children are a HUGE part of our journey!!!!