Feeling the oh so familiar tug to "write it all out" so here goes...
I'm at that "overwhelmed but feeling guilty for being overwhelmed" stage. It's a familiar stage, have been here before. It's been a high stress kind of month with lots of changes and decisions. My emotions are pulled in every direction. I'm so very blessed and feel like I can't adequately express just how grateful I am. This is life and there are problems. I do consider mine minor but they are enough to apparently shoot my bp to the sky. I don't usually put out my health stuff for all to see but I've had so many people ask and are concerned. For 10 yrs I've battled health issues and for the most part am doing SO much better. My bp is the one thing that doesn't seem to get the message that I'M BETTER! :) When it spikes, it makes it difficult to just function in every day life circumstances. I'm an emotional person any way so to control my emotions is a God task to say the least. Generally I fight things naturally, with food, vitamins/supplements etc. Hypertension is one that I have not been confident on fighting without med. I'm praying about that one... recently my med decided to stop working or my BP is pushing through the med, not sure which. I have an appt today to try to change meds. So I'm feeling guilty, laying here trying not to get emotional but then people keep blessing me and I feel so overwhelmed. Can you say ROLLER COASTER??? I know the BP will work itself out and it will be fine but for right now I'm finding it challenging to stay calm and non emotional (those who know me are LAUGHING right about now) God is teaching me, showing me more of Himself, I can't complain... I won't. I trust Him and His plan for my life!!! I'm grateful for prayers for wisdom and guidance!
Through all of this we are continuing to prepare for our missions trip to the D.R. Less than 3 weeks until we leave. It's a very exciting time (well, when my BP comes down I will get excited ha). God's provision is truly amazing! I'm extremely blessed to be a part of this team and to walk through this with Micah. God places people in our path at the exact time needed. It's truly amazing to be a part of!
