Anyone with kids knows what a challenge it is to teach/train them yet enjoy them. I have to say I don't have that balanced out very well. I don't want them to grow up and say "mom never told me" or "why didn't you teach me that?". The problem with that is I get very overwhelmed and then they end up frustrated feeling they can do NOTHING right. Last week left me feeling less than adequate as a mother and not necessarily wanting to quit but wondering if my boys would benefit from someone else as a mom. Don't judge me... I've since talked to a few people who have felt the same way along the way so I know I'm not alone. The TRUTH is I'm not only blessed with my little boogers, THEY are blessed with me! The lie of "I'm not good enough" needs to be exposed and I'm grabbing on the TRUTH that God through me can raise these boys to be great godly men!
Yesterday I woke up with just wanting to enjoy the boys. I know school starts back next week and we had some errands to run so I thought we should make it an enjoyable day. We started out to the homeschool store and on the way I had to "gently" remind them that I really wanted the day to be ENJOYABLE, not "ok. y'all. stop." Knowing the homeschool store meant they were starting school soon, they were not extremely excited but I just went with it and didn't "scold" :) I was so proud haha It was really neat inside because they were able to find some books that interest THEM. Nate brings me one and says "this store is proving to be beneficial" YAY! I was not able to find all that I needed there but I was just excited that we had a good time. There was an International Foods store right next to where we were so we went in there. It was really cool to look at all the different things. It was mostly Korean items. There were some Korean ladies in the back making Korean sushi so we were able to somewhat talk with them and try the sushi. We really liked it! Reminded us of our days in PA. We left there with a few things including some Japanese green tea that I thoroughly enjoyed. To keep the cultural ball rolling we decided to go to a German restaurant for lunch. I was soaking it all in! I love that in this small town there is so much diversity. We had wonderful German food and even more wonderful conversation as I set out for this day to just ENJOY my boys. I put aside all little spats and did not try to TEACH them (lemme just say... that was so hard haha) We left very full and satisfied! Thank you Lord for provision! From there we went to the new Guitar Center here. Of course it's like a big play ground to my boys. We spent a good amount of time in there, just looking at everything. Then on to Earth Fare... Momma's playground LOL Although, I made it in and out of there only getting oats (Micah did have to cover my eyes after my sighs got to him) When we left earth fare I decided to see if Mom wanted some coffee, really crazy question but I thought I would ask :) I took her a latte and just chatted with her a bit. Nate said "we've been to Korea, then to Germany, now back to America" We left mom's work and went to the church to clean. I love them! I just LOVE them! It still amazes me that God has blessed me to be a mom. I don't deserve it but yet he has. It's a scary thing, so much that I take it way too seriously. These boys are hilarious and they are so full of energy and life. Life will be very serious for them all too soon. I want to enjoy the times we have now. All in all, a very blessed day!
